i stayed home from school today. i didnt get any sleep at all last night. my stomach felt like it was going to explode. i finally went to sleep at around 6:30, after i had told my mom was staying home. then at around noon, i wake up to the sounds of my mom screaming at me at the top of her lungs. ha what else is new? even when i feel like shit and had no sleep, she still screams at me to wake up. fuckin psycho bitch. i dont know why but she absolutely despises when i sleep in. my grandpa got here today. hopefully my mom will chill out with him here.
oh yeah...its been a while since my grandpas been out here, so he wasnt used to seeing me with long hair and a goatee. he said i look like ringo star. hahaha
sound://aesop rock - 1,000 deaths
mb3
Friday, March 28, 2003
Wednesday, March 26, 2003
welcome to the karma hotel
looks like heaven but could be hell
where pleasant screams transform to yells
and every suite casts its own spell
sound://spooks - karma hotel
this is something i posted in a thread on lsp.
i hate:
my laziness and procrastination
people who tell me who to be and how to live my life
intollerance
people who think their opinions are facts
prejudice and racism
elitism
people who are too stupid to realize that conformity of even the smallest degree is absolutely unavoidable. NO ONE is unique.
people who let some of the most trivial things impact them so heavily
but most of all...
wondering if when im old and wrinkled, ill be able to look back on my life, and smile at what ive done and what ive become, and be happy and know that i LIVED life.
Tuesday, March 25, 2003
im sitting in pc shop in my pjs right now. today is pajama day at school. but when i first got to school i didnt see anyone in pjs, so i thought "oh shit. today isnt pajama day...and im the only moron that wore their pjs to school. damnit." thankfully i started seeing other people in their pjs and realized it is pajama day. man this is comfy. i should wear my pjs to school more often.
sound://modest mouse - dramamine
Monday, March 24, 2003
im sitting in web pub with absolutely nothing to do and im bored out of my mind. im in a group with nolan and some other guys, and we are working on the breakdancing club website. our coder, jonathan, worked on most of the site at home, but forgot to email it to himself. and the roughdraft of the site is due today. but all the files are on johns computer at his house. god damn him. oh well. im just the guy who organizes everything and tells everyone what to do so its no skin of my back. good god im bored. and this stupid ass school blocks all the fun sites.
nolan says monkeys eat poridge.
everyone suddenly started yelling about irish people. the whole class just started screaming about it for no reason. im so confused.
Sunday, March 23, 2003
my moms painting the house. again. this is like the 3rd time shes painted it since weve lived here. she wants to paint my room but theres no way im letting her. its fine the way it is. plus, if she does paint it, ill have to take down all my posters and pictures and stuff. hmm...but maybe if that happens, i can convince her to let me order a bunch of new posters. eh i dunno. shes not planning on painting my room anytime soon so i guess i shouldnt worry about it yet.
oh yeah..kalins running around butt naked. haha
sound://eric clapton - layla
Saturday, March 22, 2003
i watched bumfights earlier. i downloaded it off of kazaa. it wasnt as good as i expected. it didnt really live up to all the hype ive heard over it. also, the name doesnt fit it much. theres only 1 actual fight between bums, and it was between the 2 bums that worked for the video, so it wasnt even a real fight. the majority of the movie was just random street fights that people caught on tape. bling bling the crackhead was pretty fuckin funny tho. im glad i downloaded it and didnt waste my money on it.
sound://the locust - moth-eaten deer head
Friday, March 21, 2003
i just got off the phone with rich. its been a while since ive talked to him or gotten to hang out with him. i gotta admit i miss him. its not quite the same without him around. but oh well. its not because of me or my sisters. things didnt work out between him and my mom, so he did what he had to. i dont hold it against him. i knew it was going to happen eventually. it just sucks that it had to happen at all. he always tells me he misses me and my sisters. we miss him too. but shit happens. and as always, live goes on.

